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title: "TW:(depression) Its been a long Week"
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author: "Avrohom  Gross (@pupontech)"
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# TW:(depression) Its been a long Week

This is gonna be the most personal post I have ever written.

These past two weeks have been the month of Elul,with the Jewish High Holidays. Due to the cult I grew up in I have extreme anxiety panic attacks and nightmares during this month. Sunday night Monday were Yom Kippur so I got my typical panic attack and nightmares yay(would be cool if hyperventilating for an hr wasnt such a given , ha).

Anyways today was mostly good but I have been in higher fight or flight mode than typical. Anyways our move has brought extreme grief from Honey and I feel like my[body was mourning her.](https://pupontech.com/life-update-4-26-26-sciatica-is-killing-me/)

And now I am mourning her! Posts from Jedda about Cocoa have been helping me slowly proccess [https://notes.jeddacp.com/cocoa/](https://notes.jeddacp.com/cocoa/) . I struggle with dealing with Honey and her talking about Cocoa really makes me grok a bit better how I am feeling with Honey. Jedda I am so so sorry for your loss, but I have to thank you for helping me proccess a bit.

Today was a very devent day . Even did a Decaf cupping from Frequent Coffee with M. But it hit me after that Honey isnt here to hang with us on the porch ......

I have been listening to this playlist
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMQ1NXpIQlQ&list=RDEMQazGLdS7KWMiVZjBd3Lbyg](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMQ1NXpIQlQ&list=RDEMQazGLdS7KWMiVZjBd3Lbyg) if your feeling like I am I hope it helps.

Rip Honey .
AY

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## Discussion (3 replies)

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### 1. Fran Mendez (@fmvilas) - 2026-09-23T07:10:57.540Z

Sorry for your loss, Avrohom. Ride the wave, better times will come 💛 It reminded me of this song: https://www.letras.com/el-chojin/el-mundo-sigue-girando/ (translate it if you don't speak Spanish, I think it's a good one).

### 2. Joyce Stack (@joycestack) - 2026-09-23T17:40:25.534Z

Sending hugs

### 3. Avrohom  Gross (@pupontech) - 2026-10-06T18:01:31.337Z

Thank you @joycestack @fmvilas